Hey howdy hey! I haven’t posted in the last few days. And I wish I had some sort of cool excuse as to what I was doing, like taking a trip across the country, writing an entire novel, or saving baby cats from trees. Honestly, I was not having a very good mental health moment. I felt like I could never get up from my bed, and that I am not in the right city or doing the right things with my life. I felt stuck and terribly sad. Thankfully, I woke up this morning trying to be motivated and ready for life.
The 10th day’s challenge was no email or social media till lunch. On this day, I didn’t even WAKE UP till lunch, let alone check my email or social media. So….does that count?
Day 11 was “evaluate your commitments”. I barely have any commitments. So it took a while for me to think about this, which I guess is the point. I’ve narrowed it down to: school, bachelor’s degree ASAP, my boyfriend, this blog, my film photography, general health, and well-being. Those are the things I’m really committed to. I am so committed to school, it’s just an unquestionable thing for me. I want to get a degree as fast as I can. I really want to take community college classes to get ahead as much as I can. My boyfriend is something that I am committed to, as I want to make our relationship happy and healthy and long-lasting. I’ve been writing on here daily for the last week or so (except for these last 3 days), and plan on covering every concert I go to. I love taking pictures, I will always set aside some money to keep that passion going. I am always going to try to be the best me that I can be, especially just taking care of my body and giving 100% effort.
Day 12: Define my goals for this year. Uhhh I’m 18 I don’t know what I’m eating for dinner let alone what I’m doing with this year of my life. Finish all my classes with good grades, go to 30 shows. That’s all I can even think of. Everything else seems to be up in the air.